The book "I envy anyone who lives - The records>> Ice heauton have \u0026lt;\u0026lt;from the estate "by Oswald Spengler, I discovered quite by chance and read. It may sound a bit too exaggerated but sometimes I could see familiar ideas in what is read. These are fragments of 145, in which Spengler wrote down several thoughts and feelings and were published only posthumously. This gives an insight into his thoughts, which are very personal and may be published never should have, at least not in this form. After reading this book, in the Spengler his self-hatred and its uncertainties shows, on the other side certainly recognized his qualities as a thinker and it also derives a certain sense of superiority over other people, I'm even more excited to see what I find in his works am. Maybe I started to read incorrectly and would first have to read the books written by him and only after the personal, not intended for publication, reading records. It's too late to worry about even the head, but maybe I should adjust my reading habits really more of an overall plan.
A Gilbert Merlio in the epilogue (p. 111) postulated theory has drawn to my attention, and requires close consideration:
Would not try his self-contempt, to direct the sense of violation and awareness of being a foreigner in a positive and constructive channels, the self-destruction would be inexorably closer. The explanation to carry negative feelings in themselves or even to invent, use only the self-charging attacks, probably a bit too short. The more pronounced these feelings are, the harder it is for a deal with his life and his environment. A speculative counter-concept in which one tries to process its difference is positive, result in a feeling of superiority. However, there remain doubts deep inside and the feeling of superiority seems merely to compensate. Perhaps this balance can eventually tilt in the direction of megalomania, but even then there remains a residual sense of uncertainty.
